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You are a masterpiece

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Art, Finding your path, Shamanism

The Wild Divine: Descent into the underworld

The descent into the underworld
The descent into the underworld

The Wild Divine: A story

Sol is an apprentice in shamanism and is on her way into wholeness and finding her act of power.

Sol is not quite content with her life situation and wanted to find some answers. One night after solitude in the wilderness she had a dream and met goddess in a throne with two lions, this dream was preceding a descent into the underworld where the goddess Inanna had come to her and wanted her to descent into her darkness, facing her vulnerability and shadow. It would be a difficult task that would change Sol´s life.

Later when Sol went into her dream journey she was in ancient grounds, she felt it was in Mexico and saw ancient pyramid temples. She went there with her power animal, the swan. When Sol was walking along a river bank a lion attacked and killed her. Sol in her soul’s awareness wasn’t scared when facing this challenge as she knew it was a test and initiation to move more fully into her power. She didn´t know that Inanna sent one of her lions to attack Sol. It was the beginning of Sol´s descent into the underworld. Soon an eagle flew and took her body and flew with it on the highest point on the pyramid temple. There a black jaguar came and licked her body with new life-force and her body healed and restored back to life. The jaguar came to Sol as her power ally; there was a meeting of kindred souls from an ancient previous lifetime of power and wisdom. Sol was set to reclaim her power to become a Rainbow Warrior of light.

After the dream her life slowly became a challenge. In her job she was suddenly facing power struggle of the old patriarchy against new female professions. She was facing dullness in her relationship with her partner, and she felt chaos within how to represent her gifts into the world. Sol felt her life was about to change and needed to cleanse and heal and release her old way of living to move more fully into her life purpose and power. She had many tests in life, power was testing her, was she going to give her power away and be led astray or was she going to face the challenges, the uncomfortable circumstances and be reborn?

Sol felt she was moving into her core and underneath all the challenges were her own issues mirroring back to her. She surrendered like she did in the dream and let all the emotions well up inside. She soon went into a dream state. She felt she met Inanna which led her down under to meet her dark sister. Her sister appeared as a black jaguar, Sol´s power animal. Sol saw images appear in her eyes. She saw her own reflection, her shadow, she was scared, and it was monstrous images floating around. Crazy dark woman with skeletons in her eyes was dancing crazy and naked around her. She talked to her, “ I am your dark sister, your other half. I lure you into craziness and I seduce you into depressive state where I eat all your power and life-force. I feed of you; I feed of your ego, your laziness, your jealousy, your hate and stubbornness. I scream at you, I dance the wicked dance of Death Mother”. Sol became numb and almost felt she was dying, but remembered to honor the Death Mother and lit a candle and blew in her direction. Soon the image faded and soon another woman appeared. She had hair in all direction, had wicked, crazy eyes that stared and danced at the same time. She wore torn dress and her breasts stuck out all covered in mud. She started to dance around and Sol was entranced into a dream state by looking at this mad woman. “ I am the crazy one, I take you into your own madness, where you can stare at the moon like a lunatic, I hush and dance and take you away. I feed of your ego, your fear, your vulnerability your shame; I take you into your madness. Sol felt her negative feelings taking over and she wanted to throw herself out of the window to get rid of them. Sol´s power animal, the jaguar licked her face and soon she remembered to move into the circle and honor the feelings of the Crazy Woman and breath through this. She aligned herself in the center. In the center she felt soon calm and peace took over her body. She was ready for the next challenge.

She fell into another dream and dreamt her male counterpart in the likeness of her father. She looked at him and felt love but weakness in the body; she felt her male site was wounded and sick. Her father spoke to her. “Dear one you need to honor and remember your male shield, you need to take your stance and take back your power. Sol awoke startled and started to think about how dull she felt in her relationship and how it was mirroring back to her, her own numbness in relation to her male energies. She felt tired, wanted support and felt her Spirit Mate close to her, she called her Spirit Mate and help from the goddesses to restore her energies and wisdom to gain balance. She felt a powerful presence, her Spirit Mate came to her and she felt his love. “Call on me and I´ll be here, I am here to help you manifest your gifts in this world, I am your arrow and you are my bow, together we stalk and take into being the gifts from Great Spirit. Remember your dreams as they are your sacred pathways into your act of power. Remember you are a Dreamer and a listener to the heart, you are a Creator, build your sacred dream and use my energy as your brick walls to manifest them. She felt again the strength that she felt when in sacred ceremony they became One in a sacred marriage. How could she forget the feeling and the wholeness? She felt she needed to anchor his presence and her power animals, both the swan coming from her female shield and the jaguar coming from the male shield. She knew that to heal her weak male shield she needed to forgive many faces of the males that had hurt her in the past and as a collective who had wounded and suppressed the female powers for centuries. Sol felt she needed to regain her trust in the male energies in general. Sol decided to make a special ceremony to honor these teachings and to heal her wounds on a deep level.

Before the ceremony Sol had painted two shields for her male and female energies with the power animals on it. She put it in the center of a sacred circle with four stones holding the four directions. Sol called in all her powers and the Great Spirit, her Spirit Mate and Power animals. Her intention was to anchor and restore the balance between her male and female energies and regain her power. She let everything out, her hurt, anger and let The Great Mother eat of and transform these hurts. She honored her male part and she honored her female part. She felt their beautiful union within and she felt suddenly how energy started to move from the core of the earth as well as from high above and moved in her body like she was a pillar of light. She was ready to receive and her female part became a container for the divine Rainbow seed. The energy moved in like a powerful electric current. She felt how her cells began to vibrate in a faster mode and wake up. She felt physical en-light-en-ment in her whole being. Her heart filled with gratitude and love and she felt she was one with all there is. What a bliss, she wanted to be here forever!

Sol needed some time to anchor this light felt experience in the ceremony but felt somehow she had been reborn into her power. In her daily life she felt strong and balanced and could resolve conflicts easily and not be a part of other people’s drama. She listened to her heart and knew which direction to take in relationships and in work. Sol was full of trust and she moved magically into her dream life and she started to teach this wisdom to others. She wanted other people to find their own wholeness and creativity. Sol was on her path of mastery and became a Rainbow Warrior Goddess and a teacher of the old sacred ways. The Goddess Inanna guided Sol in her ways and she helped other people to dive into their shadow part and their male and female energies as a path to wholeness.