The theme of the divine feminine keeps appearing in my paintings these days. I feel how the presence of the Great Mother is ever flowing through the paints when I surrender and let her be my guide. It is a calming experience and a feeling of total trust. She is the Great Creatrix here on this planet, where the elements swirl together, chaos and balance mix into Oneness in an ever flowing dance in the web of life. I feel how the elements in this painting are mixed together creating ocean of energy waiting to be used to create new life, healing, flowers and trees, greens and oranges, gifts from the womb of creation, filling up our senses.
“Let the new in my live grow into beautiful blossoming path. Let the beauty way be my guide and may my heart beat the drum of love emanating loving vibrations around the world, touching all.”
Embrace all that you are, come forth with your winged ones, your spirit helpers and allies and awaken the wisdom and strength within. Call upon your guides as you are never alone. You are always protected and safe. Take flight dear one to your innermost dreams and passions, let it be your guiding light into your shining path. Let the path descent upon you as you follow your dreams and become all that you are. You deserve to let your light shine and become the brightest Star that you are meant to be. Grow and glow into your potential and everything will be taken care of. Trust that you are guided, guided by your silent soft voice of your inner knowing and your inner joy. Follow your joy, your passion as you are meant to emanate joyousness in your life. Experience positive vibrations and see how it spreads and energizes everyone around you. Spiral into a new state of being, move into the higher dimensions and become the Co-Creator in your life.
Now in the Northern Hemisphere we are moving into the cold dark winter months of hibernation and introspection. I feel it strongly when the wind is blowing outside and it is dark and the energy seems slow and heavy. When meditating couple of days ago I found myself moving into the underworld of Mother Earth which I do when I journey to meet my power animal and suddenly I moved deeper under, like I was taken deeper into Mother Earth and I was greeted by a big Polar bear. I welcomed it and he took me into his cave which was beautiful crystalline and there was a pond where I could see the sky and the galaxy and we travelled down there into the sky moving into deep inner space. It felt wonderful to fly off with the dreaming bear. He told me to move deeper into myself and there I can find the vastness of source that is emanating everything. He also told me to move deeper into my dream and that the dark and the cold winter months are opportunities to look within and really feel what is my path. There I can start to work the soil and prepare it for the dream seed that will start to grow next spring. I can feel this energy working for me because our dreams change as we change. We need to regularly check within and see if our dreams are in alignment with who we are today, because yesterdays dreams are not always growing with us.
I would love to hear about your dreams and if they have changed? Are you moving towards them?
Sol is an apprentice in shamanism and is on her way into wholeness and finding her act of power.
Sol is not quite content with her life situation and wanted to find some answers. One night after solitude in the wilderness she had a dream and met goddess in a throne with two lions, this dream was preceding a descent into the underworld where the goddess Inanna had come to her and wanted her to descent into her darkness, facing her vulnerability and shadow. It would be a difficult task that would change Sol´s life.
Later when Sol went into her dream journey she was in ancient grounds, she felt it was in Mexico and saw ancient pyramid temples. She went there with her power animal, the swan. When Sol was walking along a river bank a lion attacked and killed her. Sol in her soul’s awareness wasn’t scared when facing this challenge as she knew it was a test and initiation to move more fully into her power. She didn´t know that Inanna sent one of her lions to attack Sol. It was the beginning of Sol´s descent into the underworld. Soon an eagle flew and took her body and flew with it on the highest point on the pyramid temple. There a black jaguar came and licked her body with new life-force and her body healed and restored back to life. The jaguar came to Sol as her power ally; there was a meeting of kindred souls from an ancient previous lifetime of power and wisdom. Sol was set to reclaim her power to become a Rainbow Warrior of light.
After the dream her life slowly became a challenge. In her job she was suddenly facing power struggle of the old patriarchy against new female professions. She was facing dullness in her relationship with her partner, and she felt chaos within how to represent her gifts into the world. Sol felt her life was about to change and needed to cleanse and heal and release her old way of living to move more fully into her life purpose and power. She had many tests in life, power was testing her, was she going to give her power away and be led astray or was she going to face the challenges, the uncomfortable circumstances and be reborn?
Sol felt she was moving into her core and underneath all the challenges were her own issues mirroring back to her. She surrendered like she did in the dream and let all the emotions well up inside. She soon went into a dream state. She felt she met Inanna which led her down under to meet her dark sister. Her sister appeared as a black jaguar, Sol´s power animal. Sol saw images appear in her eyes. She saw her own reflection, her shadow, she was scared, and it was monstrous images floating around. Crazy dark woman with skeletons in her eyes was dancing crazy and naked around her. She talked to her, “ I am your dark sister, your other half. I lure you into craziness and I seduce you into depressive state where I eat all your power and life-force. I feed of you; I feed of your ego, your laziness, your jealousy, your hate and stubbornness. I scream at you, I dance the wicked dance of Death Mother”. Sol became numb and almost felt she was dying, but remembered to honor the Death Mother and lit a candle and blew in her direction. Soon the image faded and soon another woman appeared. She had hair in all direction, had wicked, crazy eyes that stared and danced at the same time. She wore torn dress and her breasts stuck out all covered in mud. She started to dance around and Sol was entranced into a dream state by looking at this mad woman. “ I am the crazy one, I take you into your own madness, where you can stare at the moon like a lunatic, I hush and dance and take you away. I feed of your ego, your fear, your vulnerability your shame; I take you into your madness. Sol felt her negative feelings taking over and she wanted to throw herself out of the window to get rid of them. Sol´s power animal, the jaguar licked her face and soon she remembered to move into the circle and honor the feelings of the Crazy Woman and breath through this. She aligned herself in the center. In the center she felt soon calm and peace took over her body. She was ready for the next challenge.
She fell into another dream and dreamt her male counterpart in the likeness of her father. She looked at him and felt love but weakness in the body; she felt her male site was wounded and sick. Her father spoke to her. “Dear one you need to honor and remember your male shield, you need to take your stance and take back your power. Sol awoke startled and started to think about how dull she felt in her relationship and how it was mirroring back to her, her own numbness in relation to her male energies. She felt tired, wanted support and felt her Spirit Mate close to her, she called her Spirit Mate and help from the goddesses to restore her energies and wisdom to gain balance. She felt a powerful presence, her Spirit Mate came to her and she felt his love. “Call on me and I´ll be here, I am here to help you manifest your gifts in this world, I am your arrow and you are my bow, together we stalk and take into being the gifts from Great Spirit. Remember your dreams as they are your sacred pathways into your act of power. Remember you are a Dreamer and a listener to the heart, you are a Creator, build your sacred dream and use my energy as your brick walls to manifest them. She felt again the strength that she felt when in sacred ceremony they became One in a sacred marriage. How could she forget the feeling and the wholeness? She felt she needed to anchor his presence and her power animals, both the swan coming from her female shield and the jaguar coming from the male shield. She knew that to heal her weak male shield she needed to forgive many faces of the males that had hurt her in the past and as a collective who had wounded and suppressed the female powers for centuries. Sol felt she needed to regain her trust in the male energies in general. Sol decided to make a special ceremony to honor these teachings and to heal her wounds on a deep level.
Before the ceremony Sol had painted two shields for her male and female energies with the power animals on it. She put it in the center of a sacred circle with four stones holding the four directions. Sol called in all her powers and the Great Spirit, her Spirit Mate and Power animals. Her intention was to anchor and restore the balance between her male and female energies and regain her power. She let everything out, her hurt, anger and let The Great Mother eat of and transform these hurts. She honored her male part and she honored her female part. She felt their beautiful union within and she felt suddenly how energy started to move from the core of the earth as well as from high above and moved in her body like she was a pillar of light. She was ready to receive and her female part became a container for the divine Rainbow seed. The energy moved in like a powerful electric current. She felt how her cells began to vibrate in a faster mode and wake up. She felt physical en-light-en-ment in her whole being. Her heart filled with gratitude and love and she felt she was one with all there is. What a bliss, she wanted to be here forever!
Sol needed some time to anchor this light felt experience in the ceremony but felt somehow she had been reborn into her power. In her daily life she felt strong and balanced and could resolve conflicts easily and not be a part of other people’s drama. She listened to her heart and knew which direction to take in relationships and in work. Sol was full of trust and she moved magically into her dream life and she started to teach this wisdom to others. She wanted other people to find their own wholeness and creativity. Sol was on her path of mastery and became a Rainbow Warrior Goddess and a teacher of the old sacred ways. The Goddess Inanna guided Sol in her ways and she helped other people to dive into their shadow part and their male and female energies as a path to wholeness.
We are all born creative. I am not more creative than you are. I have it activated! We have to activate our creativity.
Being creator is honoring that we have a part of creation within us, we are a part of the Creator. I see in the divine in me and I see the divine in you. I am divine! I am a fragment of God! I am a Creator. So we are Co-Creators with the Divine.
We have to listen and acknowledge that we are powerful and sometimes we are afraid of our own power.
Realizing this power within, we become creators and we start to create our lives. We are not a puppet on a string. We have had many centuries of powerlessness, we have been powerless and felt power over but now we have to take our stance and become responsible for our lives and our creative abilities. We have to move into our power!
I am on my shamanic path weaving ancient wisdom into modern daily life. After taking the road less traveled, studying shamanism, life has taken me into adventures and healing especially deepening my relationship with Nature and Creativity.
In the past I have been seeking wholeness since I remember, as my fellow earthlings, and from young age I felt a drive to seek answers in spirituality. I have tread many ways up the mountain, tried yoga, healing, nutrition, meditations and spiritual books and more, and it has helped me a lot, but somehow I was always dealing with the same issues, insecurity, self-doubt and sometimes dullness in life, missing the spark and magic.
However last four years has been a turning point for me as I have in shamanic studies been able to focus my intentions and dive deeper into my core and passion. I almost feel as if I have reclaimed my roots and therefore I have been able to grow up to Spirit. It feels wonderful. I remember how spirituality left me sometimes ungrounded and lofty, somewhere out there, wanting to be spirit not human. What am I doing on this earth, I questioned? I have had my challenges in life, lost my sister when I was 18 and father when I was 28 and I have had to work my way through grief and loss. Life is a school and learning experience and I am thankful for all the lessons I have learned so far. Now somehow life challenges are less dramatic and make less impact on me and I can easily become the watcher, just observing like I can soar above it like an eagle and not judge, just observe and be. It fills my being with such a freedom and it is beautiful. Shamanism has been able to ground me so I can fly. It encompasses totality of my being; I am body, spirit, emotions and thoughts, and from there it takes me around the sacred medicine wheel and spirals into the core. There I can sit connected, feeling centered and still. I don´t miss any part of my being-ness out there. I am totally myself, here within me, within the sacred circle of my being.
I feel I am becoming more like the mighty Yggrasill, the sacred Tree of Life from the mythology of Snorra-Edda the pagan Nordic Spirituality. I am growing into myself, into my core expanding and being whole with everything there is. I am more grounded with one foot in Spirit whilst the other rests in daily life, this is a way of the balanced person who can be centered and connected to both dimensions of life.
Nature has become my teacher. I have moved closer to Mother Earth as I have reclaimed her as my mother. I have longed for her and missed the deep connection that I know in my DNA, my ancestors had. There is so wide gap in todays society between man and nature. Healing that gap has healed me. I can go to Mother Nature to cleanse and rejuvenate, and she can easily cleanse all the heavy energy that has accumulated within me. She gives me strength when I climb her mountains, she gives me flexibility when observing her strong plants that adjust to the environment, she gives me feeling of surrender when I float in her waters, and she gives me growth and strength when meditating with her mighty trees. These are just few examples how Nature has taught me.
I have also begun to flow through the seasons with her. Move with her rhythms, and followed her energies. When I do that everything is easier, I don´t have to push the flower to bloom, I have to wait for the right timing. I am a part of her, and we are her children. If I ask for signs I just have to be still and listen.
Diving into shamanism has truly enriched my life and I feel more grounded and secure in my being, I feel the gap between Mother Earth and me is healing and as her child I am growing into being the Co-Creator that I am meant to become. I am still learning everyday, as growing into wholeness is a mighty tasks, many roads can lead me off track, but with intention, focus and open heart, I walk my path as a warrior of light.
I am so thankful for this connection and I feel the connection deepens everyday. This is my healing story. Gratitude and Blessings
I want to direct you to a great spiritual documentary from Openhand foundation about the 5 gateways of spiritual unfolding. It is about following your path, listen to your heart and soul and trust. We are emerging into an era of enlightenment and awakening to our soul´s purpose.
Tomorrow I am going for a week in holiday in the country surrounded by beauty in a little cottage without electricity and heat. It´s my little nature retreat where I go every year with my family, to rejuvenate and to be.
I am not going to be sending out any new posts next week. But I look forward taking time to breathe in inspiration from nature, create and write in my diary.
When I paint I oftentimes start with an idea from my intuition or a feeling, which is not yet processed in my mind. I let the process begin and I trust it and I move into my heart and I let the painting itself emerge. This is how my art is most of the time intuitive expressive art, but at other times emotional release or a healing. It is my medicine and also has been my tool in my work as an art therapist for last 10 years. I love this process and it always reflects back to me its wisdom either coming from a client or myself. The art or expression has its own voice and it is always authentic and true.
With this painting, The Fire Deva, I felt an urge to work with a tree´s energy and I felt it wanted to be orange and magenta. Slowly in the process a deva or spirit appeared out of it and got very energetic. I almost felt how it transformed into a fiery energy being yet somehow grounded. This is how my art process becomes a soul art medicine. I can feel how the energy changes and I can feel how my painting gets imbued with different energy like having a spirit on its own. It is by no coincidence it manifested. It is always something I need. It came from my core as a messenger, a mirror and also a healing aid. I needed to breathe in the life-force it emanated. Slowly and surely, as I listen and notice, its power and wisdom speaks to me and I learn to tap into its unique symbolic language. The image is surely the language of the soul as well as other arts.
Everything is connected, and has its own special energy and vibration and so is art. Art is healing both for the creator and the observer. More and more researches are done how the art process itself heals, here is a short news from BBC on the power of art http://www.bbc.com/news/magazine-21579762
Art can become your medicine as well, both for you as to change the energy vibration of a room with a painting, or to meditate with it, or through the art process itself. You don´t need any artistic skills to start doodling and working with colors and paint. It is about moving into a journey from the heart and let it guide you through. It becomes like a meditation where one needs to quiet the mind and the negative inner critic and surrender to the art and colors.
I surely want to let the world know about the healing power of art and the art making. It is as old as humanity! We used its medicine when we were living in caves surviving difficult situations. It has grown with us ever since. The natives are wise and use its power with reverence and humility, both as a healing aid like the sand-paintings of the Navajo Tribe to restore balance or the Sand Mandalas of the Tibetan Buddhism, reminding us of the finality of life.
I am so thankful for all of you beautiful people out there who take time to read my subject of passion and follow my blog. It is inspiring to make a community of like-minded people who are on their unique walk in life and support each others paths.
I know that to use my Art to Heal and to help other people Ignite their Creative Spirit is my path. Soul Art Medicine is my soul´s purpose that I will hone and nurture as it grows with me, and I am honored to let its voice be out there. It is twofold both as a vibrational artwork and as a process in creativity. It is my sincere quest and wish to help people who could benefit from applying Soul Art Medicine in their lives. I will offer commissioned paintings for healing and positive vibrations and I will offer on-line creativity services for people and individuals as well as giving guidance and inspiration on creativity, art, nature connection, shamanism, soul purpose and energy work.
I am excited to follow my heart´s calling and be welcome to join me on this unfolding journey. What is your passion and path? Start to make it true by living it and breathing it and make its voice be heard and seen. Everyone has a unique gift to offer the world. Lets spread our wings and let our light shine!
“The greatest fear in the world is the opinions of others. And the moment you are unafraid of the crowd, you are no longer a sheep, you are a lion. A great roar arises in your heart, the roar of freedom.” -Osho